Why?

Man it's already been a year... I honestly don't know what to say. A lot of people have moved on. Not necessarily forgot you but they don't hurt as bad... I on the other hand still hurt as if it just occurred today. I want to stop hurting so bad. Only if, you know.. Only if we went to school. Only if I got on facebook to see you weren't doing anything. Only if I invited you over for the heck of it. There was so many ways this could be diverted, and yet it wasn't.. Was there a reason for it? Was it meant to be? Or was it a pure accident? something that wasn't supposed to happen but did unfortunately. But why? Isn't that the biggest question for everything?! It's the most asked question. Every 40 seconds someone asks WHY? Why this? Why that? But why? Why that way? Why then? Why there? Those questions are unfortunately never going to be answered or don't need to be. We are supposed to trust God and his decisions. We should honor him as always despite what "wrongful" thing he has done. But were always curious and that's not considered a sin. So being curious here.. Why there? Why then? Why that way? And most definitely why her?! why