Missing Someone?

  Sometimes when you get these overwhelming emotions because you know someone is missing something great. Sometimes we can get those missing people back, but, then other times we can't. For reasons such as death. People leave this earth and go to heaven to escape the evil, and the bad ways.

  When Katie left we should have celebrated. Velebrated her new life in the light. No, I'm not saying we can't cry or morn, but not to do it so much. She is happy and safe, and she is waiting for us to get up there with her. But on His time of course.

  Katie would want us to be happy, not only for ourselves but her to. She loves us and missed us, but she knows that we will all be reunited.

  So we think that we are missing someone when they pass away but really they are with us every where we go. Watching and protection us. Thank you Katie for watching and protection us! 

                                                         I love you Katie, forever and always! :)

Missing Picture..

  This is the first year book i got with a missing picture, but the picture was missing not because they were sick or year book staff missed them, but because she's not here. And she will never be here again..
  It's really upsetting to go through all your books and to have your smiling face in it till you come to the last one and your no where to be found. It's so upsetting, depressing and it makes you almost not ever want one.
  I know we should be happy for you, I know we should be happy for ourselves, but it's hard. Hard to tell ourselves that your gone, and we have to be happy. I want to cry, I want to go bury myself in a huge hole and never escape.
  It's not fair god had to take such an amazing girl like you. But i guess God has an amazing plan for all of us. And I cant wait to find out. Katie we all miss you dearly and can't wait to see you in time. :)
I love you Katie, forever and always.

Best Thing??

  Your the best thing that has happened to me.. To bad people are not things! So it's more like your the best person that has ever came into my life. And thats exactly what you are. You understood, and didn't judge. You helped without helping. Weird, I know. You sat and listened without saying a word and some how suprisingly it helped. I never quiet understood thow you managed to do that, but you did and it amazed me. Katie I miss you so much. I need help like no other and it's so hard to find help from anyone anymore. Only because it's not the same as you.
  So the best person that has ever came into my life.. Well darling you are by far that! :) And thank you for everything else you have ever done for me or with me!
                                I love you Katie
                                    forever & ever

Goodbye

We all deal with problems and heart breaks but when it ends up being you 14 year old friend... That's gut wrenching. Everyone tells me I should move on and be happy because that's what Katie would want. But what about my wants? huh? I'm important to! Ya, I know my wants are irreversible but it never hurts to have them. Katie played and important role in every ones lives and in our school. She inspired people. I'm sure this sounds pretty bit for only a 14 year old girl, but it's the truth. Not everyone is perfect and yes Katie had her days. But doesn't everyone?
It's pretty sad that it takes a classmate, a sister, a friend, a daughter, a granddaughter, and much more, to bring us closer. But it also had it's bad times. People got in more fights. More drama. Most of her friends ended up having their grades drop. Not having Katie around changed a lot of things. Going to high school this year means were leaving Katie behind. The high school never met Katie so they weren't blessed and they didn't have the amazing experience like us. The principal wont do anything special for Katie so that's why leaving the middle school is like moving to another country. So I guess I have to "move to another country". It's been harder than I thought. So I guess this is a good bye Katie. For now.

Katie, Helping & Everything in Between

Are you hurting over something that happened?
God knows all about it, and he understands how you feel. He cares. Let him comfort you, leave the "why" to him, and trust him to use what has happened for his glory. Psalms 147:3 says "He heals the broken hearted and binds up their wounds."
When you feel like your at your end and can't take another bad thing, turn to God. He's always there for you. Don't be afraid to talk to him alone or with friends, who could help you.
Katie was always there for you when ever you needed her. Call her up and she practically already knew your problem and what she was going to do to help. She loved helping people and she still can. Pray. Pray to her for help, or to god for guidance. Angles are for a reason To help. Katie's job is to help and to be at peace.
Help yourself by praying, helping, giving, or even caring. There are many people out there who are willing to accept the help, but you have to assert yourself to it.
So answer this, Katie helped, why cant you?

Why?

Man it's already been a year... I honestly don't know what to say. A lot of people have moved on. Not necessarily forgot you but they don't hurt as bad... I on the other hand still hurt as if it just occurred today. I want to stop hurting so bad. Only if, you know.. Only if we went to school. Only if I got on facebook to see you weren't doing anything. Only if I invited you over for the heck of it. There was so many ways this could be diverted, and yet it wasn't.. Was there a reason for it? Was it meant to be? Or was it a pure accident? something that wasn't supposed to happen but did unfortunately. But why? Isn't that the biggest question for everything?! It's the most asked question. Every 40 seconds someone asks WHY? Why this? Why that? But why? Why that way? Why then? Why there? Those questions are unfortunately never going to be answered or don't need to be. We are supposed to trust God and his decisions. We should honor him as always despite what "wrongful" thing he has done. But were always curious and that's not considered a sin. So being curious here.. Why there? Why then? Why that way? And most definitely why her?! why